New semester

I started a new semester yesterday. Last semester I was able to get the 4.0 I really was striving to get. Yeah me!!! I entered a contest today on mygiveawaytoday.com. I love that site, they changed over from a blog so if you don't know that you do now. Todays entry was for a quilt made out of old t shirts from campus quilts. Keep my fingers crossed to win.

Baby Dance

Jarrett and I have decided that if we are going to have another baby then it needs to be soon. This month I started a round of clomid. I am hoping that I have lost enough weight in order for it to work. I decided that maybe I would use an ovulation detecting kit to see if I infact ovulate or not. I've been disappointed so far because I haven't detected any LH surge(the hormone the tests is detecting). I should of ovulated 6 days ago according to my doctor. I was getting discouraged until today that is. When I tested today there it was the dark purple line I have been waiting for. Better late than never I guess. So we will be doing the baby dance and see if my body is in agreement.
It's funny how in tune you try to be with your body when you want to get pregnant and can't. I sense so many little twinges or aches and wonder if it is possibly me ovulating. If you go on line there are so many ways to predict when you ovulate. It's serious business to some one who cannot get pregnant. You can look at your saliva under a microscope and I guess there is a ferning pattern when you ovulate. You can use the testing kits for the LH surge. Checking your mucus discharge to see if it stretches, that one I find a bit yucky. Then there is your basal body temperature, I hope you take that one in your mouth. It's easy to become a little obsessed with what your body is doing. I'm trying not to be.
It's difficult because I do have three wonderful children. I think people don't really listen or understand how hard it is when you are faced with in fertility. It's like you have kids so don't worry. I want another baby, what is so wrong with that? I think that is one reason why I have waited so long this time. I put of getting truly serious about fixing my issues because somewhere deep down inside I feel that I should just be thankful for the kids I am blessed with.
Anyways, here's to the baby dance and a positive on the ovulation stick. Wish us luck.

Long Time No Post

It's been awhile since I last posted. Life got really crazy. I became a little obsessed with getting my financial aid worked out. That low GPA I was wondering about is from a concurrent math class I took in high school. I ended up dropping the class at the high school and didn't realize I needed to drop it at the college. This all showed up as classes I had previously taken at UVU way back when it was a community college. I made an appeal and after jumping through lots of hoops I was awarded a full pell grant. Then it was time for school to start. I never really thought I was the kind of person that had anxiety, but every time I head over to school I get feeling all edgy. Kind of like I haven't eaten in about 2 days, all weak and shaky. I'm barely to the point now where I can calm myself down on the drive to class. Truly a new experience for me. My classes have been great. I have math with my husband and that makes it a little easier. Now if I could only convince the rest of the class to keep quiet and let our professor teach then that class would be perfect. It's surprising that my math skills are at such a low level since I was always in advanced math in school, but it also surprises me that they are coming back as we review in class. I love my English class. The professor is a hoot and a half, very out there and loud. It makes the class very entertaining. I have a nursing class with my baby sister. Who would of ever thought we would be taking college classes together. She is 14 years younger than me. Speaking of my baby sister, she got married to her missionary in August. She made a very beautiful bride, and our family adores her husband Aaron. My last class in Psych the one thing I really like about it is that the professor pretty much tells you what info will be on the test when he is lecturing and tells you to put a star next to the info for study. I got an A on my first English paper, and 100% on my first math test. So far, so good. I am really enjoying being out and about doing something with myself again. Being a stay at home mom is great, but some days I never even left the house. I had began to become a little depressed I think. Now I feel invigorated and alive with possibility.
The family is doing great. The girls are taking guitar lessons. If that turns out then maybe they will be getting guitars for Christmas. Hayden has had a little difficulty adjusting to mom being away from him for a few hours two days a week. It helps to have my cousin Heather as my babysitter. I'm kind of worried about next semester because I don't think our schedules will work out to swap kids. Jarrett is getting a promotion at work. He will be made supervisor. When they asked him if he would like the position he came home and asked me what it was about him that people felt made him management material. He has a way of being put in charge wherever he is working. I'm not really sure that I could pinpoint it for him. Mostly it must be his no nonsense approach. He knows how things are to be done and gets it done. He doesn't let the inter personal stuff get to him.
I will try and post a little more often. Sorry if i rambled about so many things and jumbled it all together.

UVU Here I come

My application is in, I've been accepted, and I'm progressing towards starting my first semester at UVU. I've been a little crazy and obsessed with the process. Yesterday I went and took my placement test. My math skills have definitely deteriorated since High School. I was surprised to not have to start at the very basic of math classes, but two levels up, still I am one level down from the actual math class that counts towards a degree. My English skills surprised me. I need to start one level down from beginning English. Really? This may be a mute point because my credits from Snow College oh so many years ago can count, and I took my first two English courses then. I'm finding out that maybe transferring my credits wasn't the best idea because my grades weren't the best, I think. The website has me so confused as to what everything actually is. I think is says my grade point average is .370. I don't see how this can be right. That would put me on academic suspension from Snow, and I never even was on probation. Who knows what all of this means. Later today I will have a phone conference with my academic advisor to figure everything out. Thing is I was just there yesterday and she told me I needed to have my transcripts sent. Why didn't she notice they already had been? We could of figured all of this out in person yesterday. So I am obsessing over what all of this will mean in the long run. Getting into the nursing program at UVU is very competitive, I need the best possible(4.0 if I can achieve that) GPA to get into the program. Wow, in hind sight I wish I would of buckled down and did all of this straight out of high school. I was such a good student in high school. Some how life took some pretty drastic turns and threw me into a tailspin of self destruction. I know I am better prepared to take it on now. So there's my rant for the day.

Back Home!!!

We are back in our own home!!! Yippee!!! All at the same time I am stressed a bit because of all the financial woes, the modification is taking its sweet time, and slowly our savings is dwindling away again. I can't tell you how great it is to be back in my own kitchen cooking, or using my own washing machine that does big loads with no problem. The best is being able to use my own master bathroom in the middle of the night without worrying about getting 100% clothed. No I do not sleep in the nude, but sometimes just in my underwear... o k too much info. It is awesome to have my own little master suite again, with a garden tub I can stretch out in and enjoy my bubble bath. I'm certain that we have made the wise decision for so many reasons, now I just have to rely on Heavenly Father to help us work it all out. It's great to know that we have his guidance in our lives to help direct us in the paths we should follow.

Twists and Turns part 2

Life again has given us another interesting thing to deal with. Today I got a rent check from our tenant, I was amazed that it had arrived on the 1st, we have had several problems with her paying on time. I decided maybe she was turning over a new leaf, perhaps she wanted to make things better in hope that we would let her renew her lease in July. My joy was short lived. When I opened the envelope there was a letter, which never is a good sign. The letter stated that due to the economy she is no longer able to afford the rent, she would be moving out by the 15th, and it only included half of the rent amount. Ugh!!!! We are currently in the process of trying to get the loan on our house modified due to our financial hardship, it takes about 2-3 months, and we were deciding if that would be enough to get us back in our own house. So now we have to decide if we can swing it for a few months and start moving back now, or if we list it and rent it out again. Is it possible to rent to someone for only a few months while we wait for the modification to come in?
I can't express how much I would love to just pack up and move back in, but is it possible? What if they deny our modification? This is somewhat of a sore point with me. If we were already on the brink of foreclosure then they are required to modify our loan and help us out. Foreclosure was never an option for us, we value our credit rating to much. I realize that there are many people out there who have not been as fortunate as we are, they may not have the option of living with their mom and rent out the home they own while they go to school to try and make it all better. I also know that their are so many people who simply bought more home than they could ever possible afford, or worked out a very risky loan to get into the house of their dreams. Jarrett and I have taken baby steps. Our first home was a tiny town house that built up some great equity. Our second and current home was the stepping stone to our hopefully final destination. Of course we wanted bigger and better, but we were smart about our choices. We just did not foresee the loss of a job and lack of schooling being such a big factor in finding a new job. Maybe that is the one big decision that in hindsight I would change. We had several opportunities to go to school, we should have. We are now trying to rectify that. I guess my point is that I would give us a loan modification because we have tried to do the right thing. We deserve to be helped out so that we can return to the home that we were willing to do everything to keep, by renting it out and letting go of our dream, to pursue a bigger and better one. Keep your fingers crossed for us and more importantly keep us in your prayers.

How babies are made

This morning I heard a very interesting conversation between my Mom and 4 year old Hayden. My children were all upstairs with my mom having breakfast when I headed up the stairs. I paused at the bottom when I heard them talking about a new baby. My mom had been telling them about how women in Africa had all but given their little ones to my sister Elizabeth to bring back home. We could of gave Brad and Angelina a run for their money if she could of brought all of them home. So they were talking about what it would be like to have more people in the family. Hayden said he wants a baby brother, everyone agreed that would be great. Then Hayden said," If I let my mom exercise then I can get a baby brother." I was laughing at the bottom of the stairs, I can only imagine what kind of exercising my Mom was thinking about. She commented," I'm not sure that's how you get a baby." Hayden insisted that if he left me alone when I was trying to get some exercise then I would have a baby. I decided it was time to interrupt before my mom thought Hayden had seen or knew way to much. His comment came from a conversation we had the night before. For those of you who might not know I suffer from PCOS(poly cystic ovarian syndrome). This disease that causes you not to ovulate has been the reason we don't have any more children. PCOS is kind of like diabetes, you can have it all of your life, or in my case, it can be brought on by weight gain. The doctors have suggested taking of the weight would be healthy for me all around. Now trying to exercise when you have children is difficult. I try to get on the treadmill in the mornings, but I am often interupted by one little boy named Hayden. He want's a toy, he wants a drink or snack, he wants the channel changed on the T.V. and so on. This is how we got on the subject of letting me exercise. He siad he really wants a baby brother and so I told him he could help by letting me exercise. All inoccent in nature!! It sure was funny to explain to my mom.