Baby Dance

Jarrett and I have decided that if we are going to have another baby then it needs to be soon. This month I started a round of clomid. I am hoping that I have lost enough weight in order for it to work. I decided that maybe I would use an ovulation detecting kit to see if I infact ovulate or not. I've been disappointed so far because I haven't detected any LH surge(the hormone the tests is detecting). I should of ovulated 6 days ago according to my doctor. I was getting discouraged until today that is. When I tested today there it was the dark purple line I have been waiting for. Better late than never I guess. So we will be doing the baby dance and see if my body is in agreement.
It's funny how in tune you try to be with your body when you want to get pregnant and can't. I sense so many little twinges or aches and wonder if it is possibly me ovulating. If you go on line there are so many ways to predict when you ovulate. It's serious business to some one who cannot get pregnant. You can look at your saliva under a microscope and I guess there is a ferning pattern when you ovulate. You can use the testing kits for the LH surge. Checking your mucus discharge to see if it stretches, that one I find a bit yucky. Then there is your basal body temperature, I hope you take that one in your mouth. It's easy to become a little obsessed with what your body is doing. I'm trying not to be.
It's difficult because I do have three wonderful children. I think people don't really listen or understand how hard it is when you are faced with in fertility. It's like you have kids so don't worry. I want another baby, what is so wrong with that? I think that is one reason why I have waited so long this time. I put of getting truly serious about fixing my issues because somewhere deep down inside I feel that I should just be thankful for the kids I am blessed with.
Anyways, here's to the baby dance and a positive on the ovulation stick. Wish us luck.

Long Time No Post

It's been awhile since I last posted. Life got really crazy. I became a little obsessed with getting my financial aid worked out. That low GPA I was wondering about is from a concurrent math class I took in high school. I ended up dropping the class at the high school and didn't realize I needed to drop it at the college. This all showed up as classes I had previously taken at UVU way back when it was a community college. I made an appeal and after jumping through lots of hoops I was awarded a full pell grant. Then it was time for school to start. I never really thought I was the kind of person that had anxiety, but every time I head over to school I get feeling all edgy. Kind of like I haven't eaten in about 2 days, all weak and shaky. I'm barely to the point now where I can calm myself down on the drive to class. Truly a new experience for me. My classes have been great. I have math with my husband and that makes it a little easier. Now if I could only convince the rest of the class to keep quiet and let our professor teach then that class would be perfect. It's surprising that my math skills are at such a low level since I was always in advanced math in school, but it also surprises me that they are coming back as we review in class. I love my English class. The professor is a hoot and a half, very out there and loud. It makes the class very entertaining. I have a nursing class with my baby sister. Who would of ever thought we would be taking college classes together. She is 14 years younger than me. Speaking of my baby sister, she got married to her missionary in August. She made a very beautiful bride, and our family adores her husband Aaron. My last class in Psych the one thing I really like about it is that the professor pretty much tells you what info will be on the test when he is lecturing and tells you to put a star next to the info for study. I got an A on my first English paper, and 100% on my first math test. So far, so good. I am really enjoying being out and about doing something with myself again. Being a stay at home mom is great, but some days I never even left the house. I had began to become a little depressed I think. Now I feel invigorated and alive with possibility.
The family is doing great. The girls are taking guitar lessons. If that turns out then maybe they will be getting guitars for Christmas. Hayden has had a little difficulty adjusting to mom being away from him for a few hours two days a week. It helps to have my cousin Heather as my babysitter. I'm kind of worried about next semester because I don't think our schedules will work out to swap kids. Jarrett is getting a promotion at work. He will be made supervisor. When they asked him if he would like the position he came home and asked me what it was about him that people felt made him management material. He has a way of being put in charge wherever he is working. I'm not really sure that I could pinpoint it for him. Mostly it must be his no nonsense approach. He knows how things are to be done and gets it done. He doesn't let the inter personal stuff get to him.
I will try and post a little more often. Sorry if i rambled about so many things and jumbled it all together.