Biggest Loser

So it is a little embarrassing to admit but I have sent in an audition tape to the biggest loser. It may be a little pathetic but the show really inspires me, just not enough to really get the weight off. I did buy a treadmill and I have been using it, a little bit. I hate the struggle that I have had with my weight. Recently it has effected me the most because I havn't been able to have that last baby I always have wanted. Having three children has been wonderful and I am so lucky to have been able to conceive any of them, but I know I have one more waiting for me. One more wonderful spirit from our Heavenly Father that needs to be part of our forever family. Suffering from PCOS is something that I could control if I could just take of this weight. I wish I could inspire muself like I did when it was about time to come home from my mission. I got my butt in gear and lost 60 pounds in 4 months. There was no way I was coming home fat. I did it then, why has it been so impossible to so now. Maybe the three kids and the duties of a stay home mom have had their toll on me. Maybee becoming more sedantary than I should has taken it's toll on me. And maybe the mindless snacking have taken their toll on me . Keep posted I'll let you know if I make it on the show, and how that ever on going battle with the weight is doing.