How babies are made

This morning I heard a very interesting conversation between my Mom and 4 year old Hayden. My children were all upstairs with my mom having breakfast when I headed up the stairs. I paused at the bottom when I heard them talking about a new baby. My mom had been telling them about how women in Africa had all but given their little ones to my sister Elizabeth to bring back home. We could of gave Brad and Angelina a run for their money if she could of brought all of them home. So they were talking about what it would be like to have more people in the family. Hayden said he wants a baby brother, everyone agreed that would be great. Then Hayden said," If I let my mom exercise then I can get a baby brother." I was laughing at the bottom of the stairs, I can only imagine what kind of exercising my Mom was thinking about. She commented," I'm not sure that's how you get a baby." Hayden insisted that if he left me alone when I was trying to get some exercise then I would have a baby. I decided it was time to interrupt before my mom thought Hayden had seen or knew way to much. His comment came from a conversation we had the night before. For those of you who might not know I suffer from PCOS(poly cystic ovarian syndrome). This disease that causes you not to ovulate has been the reason we don't have any more children. PCOS is kind of like diabetes, you can have it all of your life, or in my case, it can be brought on by weight gain. The doctors have suggested taking of the weight would be healthy for me all around. Now trying to exercise when you have children is difficult. I try to get on the treadmill in the mornings, but I am often interupted by one little boy named Hayden. He want's a toy, he wants a drink or snack, he wants the channel changed on the T.V. and so on. This is how we got on the subject of letting me exercise. He siad he really wants a baby brother and so I told him he could help by letting me exercise. All inoccent in nature!! It sure was funny to explain to my mom.

Twists and Turns

Life we know it has all kinds of twists and turns. As many of you may know we are currently living with my mom. Seems to be a trend among people our age these days. Who could of foreseen Jarrett losing such an awesome job that we felt blessed to have each and every day. I guess sometimes Heavenly Father feels like he needs to give us a little push now and then. This goes back so much further than just Jarrett losing his job though. I had felt for a while before any of our hardships that we would be living with my mom. At the time I thought maybe it was because she would need someone to take care of her, at that time she had just been diagnosed with M.S. and was having trouble even walking. Fortunetaly the diagnoses was wrong and she was able to have surgery to repair some damaged disks in her neck, and she eventually gained back her strength. At that time it seemed that maybe my promptings had just been my concern to take care of her. When Jarrett lost his job I felt comfortable moving in with my mom because once again I felt like we were meant to be here. It hasn't been an easy move. Tensions have risen between me and my mom, Jarrett and myself, I'm stuck in the middle. After a huge fight with my mom this week I decided it was time to do something about it. I started looking into a loan restructering of our home and considered renting an apartment. I even called around to a few places. We considered taking out student loans to help through school and living expenses. If I go to work then we have to take out loans because we wouldn't qualify for full grants anymore. So it's like the preverbial "rock and a hard place". What do we do??? Take out student loans so we can move back into a house we couldn't afford without them. This option allows for me to go to school full time and for Jarrett to work and go to school. We would go to school on grant money and use the loans to live on. Or I could go back to work so we could move back into the house(or rent), but then we would still have to take out student loans because we wouldn't qualify for grants anymore. Ugh!!!! Choices. We do have a third choice. A choice I had decided was not going to work at all. Stay where we are at. Graduate owing nothing. But can my relationship with my husband and my mom survive. The twists and turns of life have seemed to make the choice even more complicated and more obvious all at the same time. Yesterday my mom was laid off from her job. This is a little bit ironic because we had been fighting about how she wasn't benefitting in any way from having us here. Even though we do pay her full utility bill and buy the majority of groceries. Now it seems that she will need us here helping out just as much as we needed to be here. Can I leave at such a crucial time for her? If we don't leave can my relationships take it? Double ugh!!!

Puppies

These are the tiny puppies that we have roaming around the house now. It was an awesome experience for the whole family to understand the beginnings of life cycle. When we took Stella(mommy dog) to get bred we had the kids with us. When dropped her off went shopping and then came back to pick her up. When we got back in the car Hayden asked"Stella did you have a good time in there with your boyfriend?" Well she hadn't had a good time and it took several trips until finally we had success. On that day Hayden kept telling everyone"They finally did it, Stella and her boyfriend kissed."